things are never what it looks like.

a while ago, i had some time to think about all the things that's happened during my freshmen year. and i guess i need to figure out a few things. and yeah. and my blog just seemed like a good place because this is my place and nobody really reads my blog anyways and yeeeeeeeeah. unless you're some creepy creeper.

anywho, pros & cons. and i know my cons list seems pretty short, but each one of it is worth like 3 pros and yeeeeeah.

pros:

halloween! 

IASAS vball & XC 

that talk with peyton after XC race

Derrick

being closer to certain people that i honestly love right now.

citi invitational meet

FROLIC!

bonding #1

pre- I

bonding afterwards! 

birthday!

IASAS

MOS burger

HOT DOG STAND.

last bonding

MANTAS

awesome party w/ the people i love the most :)

sleepover after that.

Awards Banquet

SWIMZONE

yearbook

more to come later, hopefully.

cons:

letting people go. just people in general. more than one person. people. 

IASAS during. god, she really pisses me off like insane. 

ATB and everything after that. 

MANTAS and during that. 

MAY 7TH and after. 

er parents.

the fucking wicked witch of the west.

formspring and its weird creepy people & their questions.

people & i drifting apart because i stopped caring about them.

and people i care about are breaking apart. and i cant be there for them anymore.

random nails chipping. 

so that adds up to like more cons than pros and yeeeeah.

ohhhhhh well

it was nice to finally have some time to think about things that happened, 'cause things like this is really confusing for me and i needed to be able to think about it and i just did it and so my thought isn't so a;lks jf;laks jf;a right now anymore, but it still is because i dont really know what im supposed to do now because theres nothing i can do to help the people i wanna help because its really not my problem anymore, or so people say and yeah.