30 day post, all in one.

which makes this 30-day thing pointless, but I was busy with moving and stuff, I don’t have enough time to post each one as a separate post. anyways, here it goes!






Day 1 — Your Best Friend

tovebjork! my favourite blonde ever, i admire her determination and her sense of humour.

derrickmoore! he’s simply the best along with peyton. i love his hair. and his laugh. and his uniqueness.

peytonharris! the other best person. love his advices. and our occasional serious talks. and I think its really cool how he is fair to basically everyone. except for S, whom we both didn’t like so much.

kevinbuii! favourite psychologist. soccer obsessed freak. weird sense of humour. loud. haha

berlincheng! beriannako band was the best. MOS burger. waterpark. citi meets. good luck next year!

briantong! my favourite Singaporean! cheese game & overall iasas, mantas, ATB, citi & may 7th + our inboxes. you make me smile.



Day 2 — Your Crush

there currently is none.

but if I ever find one, I hope im strong enough to tell him, and not let it slip away.



Day 3 — Your parents

are alive and well.



Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

cousins are the best. our encounters with random things, laughing till we cant breathe anymore, cleaning out my room. love it.



Day 5 — Your dreams

my dream is now decided. I want to do something to do with language, something that I can use my English, Japanese & Chinese for. and I do want to go to college with the TASers. not a year late.



Day 6 — A stranger

strangers don’t really scare me anymore. besides, everyone here is a stranger to me now, and I gotta make friends with the strangers. that’s a weird thought. but still.



Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

my ex-boyfriend is my best friend. he’s helped me get through the toughest times of my life, just being there. and making me laugh all the time. and cheering me up. I do wish I hadn’t given up easily, just to see what we could’ve been, but maybe giving up was good because that’s why we are what we are now.



Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

is briantong. or dianaredza. god, brian makes me smile inside so much, when I read what he writes. or Diana, who makes me crack up.



Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

my great-grandma. I was 2 when she passed away, so it goes without saying that I don’t remember her much. but everyone says im exactly like her, my words & actions & looks altogether, so I’d like to meet her. and plan evil things against my dad & grandma :P



Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

peytonharris! I guess we didn’t really talk much in our freshmen year, cause we didn’t have any classes together, and that person we always used to talk about is now gone. which im happy about. but I wish I’d talked to you more before I left. our talk after XC was great, you and your helium inhaled voice. and you calling S. and our evil plans against her. and that one inbox you sent me about mitch. but that was basically it. so yes, I would’ve liked to talk to you more.



Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

my great- grandma. see Day 9.



Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

those two people aren’t the same person. but the person I dislike (hate is a strong word) is waaaay too controlling. and too obsessed. and too annoying. and too much of a fake.

the person that caused me a lot of pain probably doesn’t know that he caused me so much pain, and probably doesn’t care about me at all, and never has. and I learned to accept that, so theres not much to say to him now.



Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

I’ve done things that are unexcuseable, unforgiveable, but if you could, I’d like you to forgive me. not forget, just forgive. I honestly am sorry for the pain I caused you and all the mess I put you through.



Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

it all started on march 24th 2008. since that day, we’ve slowly drifted apart, no matter how much we both tried. we were meant to be “drifted away” from each other, and that explains why whenever I try to be closer to you, you are doing the opposite, and vice versa.



Day 15 — The person you miss the most

basically everyone in Taiwan, but I guess I miss derrick the most because he doesn’t live in Taiwan, which makes it harder for me to visit him.



Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

everyone in Taiwan. and derrick.

I miss them so much.



Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

yuka shizuru!

I used to call her octopus. and she used to call herself squid. we were a couple of odd children.



Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

I recently realized that im happy with who I am, so I don’t really want to be anyone else, given the choice.



Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

im constantly thinking about this one person that makes me smile even during the darkest part of my life. we’ve been through a lot this past year, I didn’t realize I liked us being friends this much. I used to think he was kinda clumsy, but hes actually pretty skilled. and a procrastinator. haha oh how I miss everything.



Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

he still constantly bugs me. so much. he’d type me msgs on gchat saying “go to hell bitch” or “im glad we’re not together anymore” and things like that. i mostly just ignore it. but honestly, I do think im the bigger person here even though he hurt me more. kinda ironic.



Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

would probably be derrick. haha I used to think he was just some skinny, weak kid who had scars all over his legs + arms from skateboarding. and of course, I learned that I was highly mistaken. he is so much more than just a skinny person. well, yeah, hes still skinny as ever, due to his vegetarianism. which, by the way, is contagious. anywho, I learned that he was independent but dependent at the same time, funny but serious, and unique and special.



Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

er that would be us. I want to give us a second chance, but we’re not gonna do that, because if we do, we might not be what we are right now anymore.



Day 23 — The last person you kissed

derrick moore is the last person I kissed and I have no regrets about that what-so-ever. he’s the best boyfriend anyone could ever ask for, and the best friend anyone could ever have. end of discussion.



Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

November 18th – December 10th 2009. that’s all im saying.



Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

taylor. I know you’re having trouble finding who you are, who you can trust and not, and what you want to do and why you’re here, but don’t give up. you will find the answers to all the questions that you have, and you will find a reason to be where you are right now.



Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

taylor. See above.



Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Kayla! Even though we were only together for one day, our swim fest was a blast! And our random inboxes about the randomest things ever. I miss you babe!



Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

You taught me how to stand up to others. You are the reason why im who I am right now. So thank you.



Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

See above.



Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Gets uglier and uglier each time I look in the mirror. That’s all.