im not that strong.

I don't cry in public.
But that doesn't mean that im strong. I do spend sleepless nights crying my eyes out about things.


I seem okay at school.
But that doesn't mean that im strong. I just don't want random people asking me what happened.

I smile and laugh a lot.
But that doesn't mean that im strong. It just means that I know there are some people that'll see my true emotions underneath that smile.

I listen to other peoples problems.
But that doesn't mean that im strong. I just have the ability to use my experience to help others.



Because
I do space out, thinking about all the things that's in my head.
I also do spend a lot of time obsessing over something small.
I listen to songs that make me feel worse but better.
I sometimes break down because I get tired of pretending like im okay.



It hurts a lot when people ask me if im okay, and I can't tell them anything because its partially their fault that im not okay in the first place.
It bothers me when people roll their eyes at me just because I was spacing out, trying to figure things out.


Maybe, just maybe, I need someone to be there for me at times like this. And yui, mizuki, sakura & hikaru have been doing that for the past three days. Thanks guys, for putting up with my ups & downs.