from insomniatic thoughts.

I just wanted to tell you that I know I’ll let you down.

I’ll make mistakes, and say things I don’t mean.

I’ll break your heart and rip you to shreds.

I’ll do everything in my power to be the worst possible person to you, just to see if you stick

around.

I’ll lie, cheat, abuse, forget, and pretend certain aspects of myself just to see if you can really love me for who I am, if you really meant your promise when you said you’d be there for me.

Eventually, I’ll cut myself open and let you in.

I’ll let you know some of my inner thoughts, my inner feelings, the sick and twisted parts of me that I can’t bear to deal with myself.

I will be honest with you and every single question you ask me.

To be honest, I think that you will agree, when I say that the latter of the two is the worst thing that I can possibly do to you.

I just wanted to tell you that I like you more than I let on and it really hurts when you play these games with my head.

I’ve turned down good guys who actually want me to be their girlfriend and who want to treat me the way I deserve to be treated because you’ve got me under your spell.

I can sit here and say that I’m done with you and that I’m going to go be with one of those guys who respects me but I know that the second you call and ask me to go out on a date with you again that I will, because I can’t resist you.

No matter how dumb it may seem, a part of me will always hope that you will want me the way I want you, and a part of me will always believe that we may have a chance to make it work.

I just wanted to tell you how much I love you.

I appreciate everything you have done for me and I know without you I wouldn’t be the person I am today.

Every day I’m with you, I learn something new, whether it be about life or about myself.

I could never repay you for everything that you have given me.

Every feeling I have received from you will never be comparable to any other.

Every time I see you all I want to do is make you happy and make you smile because you do that to me. No matter what happens, I’m always here for you and always will.

You will never have to go through anything alone because I will always be standing by your side, hand in hand.

We’re a unit and nothing can tear us down.

You have my heart and in return I will wrap myself close to yours and make sure it stays safe and warm.

Together forever my love, forever and always.

I just wanted to tell you that even though you claim you love her, I never ever want to believe those words, and I never will.

I’ll always keep trying.

Even when it seems as if you hate me.

No matter how reckless and no matter how incredibly stupid or unbelievable this may sound, I love you.

Unconditionally and irrevocably.

I just wanted to tell you that I forgive you.

I forgive you for leading me on and I forgive you for breaking my heart.

I even forgive you for not realizing how much you mean to me.

I just hope you know what you’re losing when you let me go.

i just wanted to tell you that i cant stop thinking about you.

day and night, 24/7.

we went our separate ways, because of obstacles in our relationship.

now you got a new girl to love and apparently she changed your life… just like how you said i changed your life.

now i know that you say the same things to other girls.

i just wanted to tell you that i miss you .

I just wanted to tell you that I don’t actually like you.

I know it’s wrong, but I just keep you around because you never leave, no matter how shitty I treat you.

I do care about you, but you are on my leash, as horrible as that sounds.

I never said anything because I didn’t want you to leave, because I need someone who will always be there when I need them, because inside I’m scared of being left alone.

And I like being in control of you.

I still am, and will always be until I leave for college.

I’m sorry.

I’m a fucked up person.

My favorite memory is of laying in bed.

I couldn’t get my mind off of you.

I know I shouldn’t think about you anymore - you broke my heart, but you’re all I think about at night.

Your last text to me was the best message that has ever gotten sent to my phone.

You had always said, “night gorgeous(:” or “night beautiful, text you in the morning,” but never that.

I will never forget that message, even if it’s gone from my phone.

“Goodnight beautiful, I love you.” Correct punctuation, too.

That was the last time I ever got a text from you, the last time I ever talked to you.

And I still miss you everyday.

That’s what crosses my mind every night when I can’t sleep and I lie awake, missing you more and more as each day passes.

I just wanted to tell you that I have emotional breakdowns constantly because I never want to disappoint you.

You give up so much for me and I always feel like I’m letting you down.

I love you.

You have made me who I am today because of the good and the bad.

I just wanted to tell you that I will never stop loving you.

Even though I’ve tried to move on as much as I can, it’ll never happen.

Because it will always be you.

As much as it pains me to say hear you say that we can’t be together, my heart is telling me not to believe a word you said but my mind is saying

“Move the hell on. It won’t happen. It’ll never happen.”

Who do you think I listen to more often?

My heart of course.

That’s why I’ll never get past whatever it was that we had

That’s why I’ll never get past whatever it was that we had because that was my only good memory.

Only memory of us.

“I just wanted to tell you that ….”

I know I am a mess.

I never know what I want, but I really do honestly believe I like you too.

I’ve got stuff to figure out and I really hope you are still waiting when I finally tie up all my loose ends back home.

There are just so many reasons why we shouldn’t be together, but for some reason, I can’t help but keep wanting to be with you.