strangers.

i try not to let my weakness show
especially in front of you
because that just proves how vulnerable i am without you
and you don't need any of this right now
because you finally got what you wanted.

but it's hard, when all you do is just stand there
and watch me try not to let you see me hurt.

it would help if you said something or did something.
and not act like we're complete strangers
because after all we've been through, we can't just go back to being strangers.

you may think we can be strangers
but that's not true,
what we had will stay with you forever
or rather, haunt you forever, in your case
since you so wanted to get away from it all.

but no matter what you do,
everytime you see me, you'll be reminded of the things we've done.
you can't forget anything that's happened.
that's life. and you need to deal with that.

you can pretend like we don't know each other though.
but that'll make people wonder what happened to us
because they've all seen us together
and they know how we close we were, or "pretended" to be.

maybe all of what we had
was hard for both of us.
living up to peoples expectation.
maybe we didn't have any feelings for each other to begin with.

we were just pretending all along.

it's nice to finally know that what we had might've been, probably was,  fake,
rather than to keep doubting what we were.

know that we cant be strangers anymore
we've gone too far with this to go back.

doesn't matter that we didnt like each other
and that we were doing this for everyone's benefit but our own,
we still changed ourselves for each other.

and as if changing for a person isn't hard enough
going back is harder.

i hope we can both learn from this.