pain.

I'm losing it. everything is falling apart.
nothing goes right.
i don't feel much.
just pain.

it's honestly been a while since i felt like this.
everything that's been happening, they were deal-able.

this. isn't. deal.able. at. all.

apologies don't help anymore.
they don't mean anything to me.
they are just words that people say to try to make themselves feel better about something they have done wrong.
saying sorry has nothing to do with actually feeling sorry.
its a way of getting away from their guilty conscience

all i can feel is your glare across the room.
and that weird vibe i get off of you whenever you're around.
it really creeps me out.

this is all too much, but not enough at the same time.