things are never what it looks like.

i wish i had never known that i had different options. knowing there are different ways i could've gone is painful, but knowing, at the same time, that there is no going back or changing my way now is more painful. if i hadn't known that one option that i came across in April, i think i would be enjoying my life a little bit more than i am now.
at the same time, i wish i had taken the time to do some research on my own a year and a half ago, rather than to let my parents decide for me. i knew it was coming, so i should've snapped out of denial and should've gone my way.