Temecula Sunrise.

if I'm not there when you awake, please don't be scared. make no mistake, I'll be there to sleep with you soon.

believing.

you know why it didnt work for us?
its because you only believe what is physically visible, whereas i have the tendency to believe in what i feel. i know what im feeling isnt some fake emotion, its real. 
but you couldnt bring yourself to see underneath everything thats visible. 
not your fault or anything, its just the way you are.
and one of the many reasons i fell in love with you in the first place.


keep believing in what you want to believe.
someday, someone way better than me, someone who understands what you see, and what you dont see, will come along.

lies.

I don't wanna kid myself anymore.
I know how I feel, I'm not gonna try to hide it anymore.
I know that what I'm feeling isn't just a phase people go through. this is for real.

for the last time, i dont dedicate this blog to anyone. i might write about someone every once in a while, but when i do, i make sure that i mention their names.
dont assume, that whenever i post something, words or pictures, that it is directed towards you.
chances are, i'm not writing to anybody.

images of your smile, the sound of your voice, memories of you by my side,
all those things are constantly haunting me.

just sayin'

maybe we're afraid.

regret.

you once asked me if there was anything i regret.
it was the night before you left, and i confessed.

if you ask me thr same question again, my answer will be different.
i'd tell you that my regret would be trusting you with everything i had.

i realize now, that even though it seemed like i gave you everything there was to give, i can barely remember things about you anymore.
i know the facts, the dates, the words you said.
but thats just like memorizing dates for a history class.
i dont remember the things that count.

what scares me more, is that to be honest, i'm okay with not being able to remember.

I try to give you the best of me, but it gets hard sometimes when I'm the only one trying and you're not even bothering to give it a go.

All Time Low

current favourite band. 


It was like a time bomb set into motion
We knew that we were destined to explode
And if I have to pull you out of the wreckage
You know I'm never gonna let you go
- Time Bomb

I'm finding me out,
I'm having my doubts,
I'm losing the best of me.
We're all part of the same, sick little games,
And I need a get-away
I'm wasting my days, I throw them away,
Losing it all on these sick little games.
-Sick Little Games 

I'm gonna break your little heart
Watch you take the fall
Laughing all the way to the hospital
'Cause there's nothing surgery can do
When I break your little heart in two
I'm gonna break your little heart in two
- Break Your Little Heart 

When the lights go off
I wanna watch the way you
Take the stage by storm
The way you wrap those boys around your finger
Go on and play the leader
'Cause you know it's what you're good at
The low road for the fast track
Make every second last
- Dear Maria, Count Me In 

Even though she doesn’t believe in love
He’s determined to call her bluff
Who can deny these butterflies
They’re filling his gut
Waking the neighbors
Unfamiliar faces he pleads though he tries
But he’s only tonight
Now he’s dying to get inside
-Remembering Sunday

pretty sure im not the only one that can't imagine Daniel Radcliff being anyone other than Harry Potter.

17 again.

Scarlet, before you go through this, I want to remind you of September 7th, 1988. It was the first time that I saw you. You were reading Less Than Zero, and you were wearing a Guns 'n' Roses t-shirt. I'd never seen anything so perfect. I remember thinking that I had to have you or I'd die... then you whispered that you loved me at the homecoming dance, and I felt so peaceful... and safe... because I knew that no matter what happened, from that day on, nothing can ever be that bad... because I had you. And then I, uh... I grew up and I lost my way. And I blamed you for my failures. And I know that you think you have to do this today... but I don't want you to. But I guess... if I love you, I should let you move on.

just made two batches of chocolate brownies to take to school tomorrow :)

sucks we have to go in on our national holiday, but definitely hoping it'll be worth it :D 

quidditch made me think
maybe flying isnt so bad.

i wish i had friends like this.

spells.

i think this photo is fitting for my 1000th post.

jealousssssssssssssss