confession.

confession #1

when i first moved back, i was sort of bullied. not the kind of bullying you'd see in the movies, it wasn't as obvious as that, but the few who had witnessed it all said that it was legitimate bullying.
i was cyber-bullied, to start with. messages and comments of rude context were sent to me pretty much every day, and formspring was a living hell.

then there were the rumors that spread around before i even got the chance to correct them. i was the last to find out. people i didn't even know, people i've never met, talked behind my back. see, i was one of the few new students. i didn't know them but they knew
e. and because of that, people had a preconception as to who i supposedly am, and they hesitated to interact with me. and when you think about it, the rumors couldn't've been more obvious. they were things like, i moved back because i got pregnant and had an abortion. or like i had sex with the entire swim team, plus the coaches. ehhhh. or that i had been arrested for using illegal drugs and that i was basically sent back to japan by the taiwanese government.
c'mon, when all these starts flying around, you've got to think, well, they can't all be true. but i guess nobody had enough common sense to see that.

and i know, im not trying to be cocky or anything, but i know that those who still believe in the rumors came to talk to me and actually interacted with me now, i can make them see that they are absolutely wrong about me. people that im friends with now have told me that i was the complete opposite of how the numerous rumors portrayed me as, and im truly glad to hear that.

i somehow managed to not care about what people say about me, because 96 % of the time, they're not true. if anything, it sort of amazes me to see the acquiescence in all of the people who still cannot get over the fact that i got neither pregnant nor an abortion.

okay, so that's my little confession there. i feel as though i didn't do anything wrong, so i see no reason to be ashamed of it.

i love my friends that i have now, for accepting me for who i am.