path.

i'm often haunted by the thought that i might not be able to go anywhere from here.
sure, i am comfortable with where i am now and i don't quite want to leave this behind yet, but while everyone is "moving up the escalator" as they say at my school, i'm stuck trying to figure out how to even get on the escalator.

it's so hard sometimes, to be doing something completely different from everyone else. and they all look at me like i'm stupid, when i tell them i won't be taking the same path as them.
but i think this is really important. to go my own way.
as my favourite author, JK Rowling, said in her commencement speech at Harvard 2008, as soon as we are old enough to take the wheel for ourselves, the parents' job to steer us in the direction is expired.

i will follow whatever path i lay in front of me, and sometimes, it might lead me nowhere but a dead end. and when that happens, i'm going to accept that as is, and try my hardest to find my way back to the road i want to follow.

only 6 more months to make a decision. so many options, so little time.