Monday, June 25, 2012

i wish i lived in a world where nothing really matters except for who we are as a person. not as a group or a clique or society, but just as an independent individual.

Friday, June 22, 2012

time machine.

what would i do if i had a time machine? 
in all honesty, i wouldn't change anything,
i'd love to re-visit my middle school & freshmen year
but i wouldn't try to change anything.

culture day.


dance
 

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

reminiscence.

Your Best Friends:
are the ones that accept me for who i am. it doesn't matter where we are or how long we've been apart, as soon as we see each other, it'll be as though the blank years in between never existed.

Your Crush:
currently non existent.
Your sibling (or closest relative):
my baby cousins. and other cousins. we're fairly close to each other, considering the age difference and the difference in the culture we were brought up in. we learn new things from each other, or at least i do, and i know i don't have to be anyone impressive around them because they don't expect too much from me. which is beyond comforting for me at this point.
Your dreams:
my dreams at night consists either of memories that i can't seem to recall when im awake, or of the things that i am terrified of.
my dreams during the day time comes back to haunt me during the night.
my dreams for the future is a bit overwhelming for me right now.

A stranger:
i've had a fair share of encounters with strangers.

Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush:
ex-boyfriends: none of them live in the same country as i do now. and i don't really know how any of them are doing.
Your favorite internet friend:
i dont have a favourite. or i dont have an internet friend. why would you have a friend who you know only through the internet? that's completely absurd.
Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to:
tove, peyton, derrick, cow, brian, creager, buii, eric, william, berlin, jill.

The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain:
i don't actually hate anybody, really. and the person who hurt me the most doesn't really matter to me anymore.
Someone you’ve drifted away from:
that'll be a lot of people from Taiwan. and TAS. and TJS. and IASAS.

The person you miss the most:
people who matter don't mind, people who mind don't matter.

Someone that’s not in your state/country:
pretty much everyone.

Someone from your childhood:
yuka. best friends since 1997.

Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad:
nobody right now, really. i think i'm too preoccupied.
The one that broke your heart the hardest:
is the person i want to give my biggest thanks to. he has helped shape up who i am today.

Someone you judged by their first impression:
aren't who i thought they were and we now realize we were both wrong about each other and i'm trying to overcome the fact that they're not bad people like i foolishly assumed they were.

Someone that changed your life:
a lot of people have made a significant difference in my life. and it goes without saying that no matter what happens between us, they will always be the ones who are there for me.
there's a part of me, and i now realize how dominant that part is, that wishes i never existed.

Friday, June 15, 2012

family.

best friends. sisters. family. soul mate. my other 4/5s. 



Thursday, June 14, 2012

class tshirt!

senior year class tshirt
designed by me, hiraharu, johnny-san, natsume-kun!

3-E class matsumoto :)

Wednesday, June 06, 2012

connection.

1. Who was the last person to call you baby/babe?
my lovely father.


2. Anyone crushing on you?
don't know.


3. What is your relationship status?
single :)


4. Has anyone ever sang to you?
multiple times.


5. Has anyone ever given you roses?
yes.


6. Who do you text the most?
not sure but probably my father because he lives so far away.


7. First person to text today?
luke!


8. What color are your eyes?
dark brown.


9. What is a compliment you receive often?
i dont know, like something to do with my shoes or something.


10. Who was the last person to say they loved you and when?
luke. this morning. 


11. Do you like your parents?
 somewhat.


12. Do you secretly like someone?
 not secretly.


13. Why did your last relationship end?
because he moved and we weren't about to try long distance 'cause we both know how that ends.


14. Who was the last person you said you loved on the phone?
 luke.


15. Who was the last person you kissed?
<3


16. Do you like funny people or serious people?
funny.


17. What are you listening to?
the bell.


18. Is the last person you kissed older than you?
yes.


19. Are you happy right now?
yes. 


20. If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
a visit to taiwan. 


21. Who makes you happiest right now?
probably luke & ayano.


22. Do you want to get married & have children one day?
one day.


23. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
of course.


24. How many girlfriends/ boyfriends have told you they love you?
four.


25. Have you ever thought that you were going to marry a person?
nope.


26. Are you crushing on someone?
nope.


27. Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt?
now that i think about it, no.


28. Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?
yes.


29. Are you happier single or in a relationship? 
depends.


30. Have you ever told someone you loved them and didn't mean it?
yes.


31. Have you ever had your heart broken?
not really.


32. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
i sure hope not.


33. If you could go back in time and change things, would you?
yes.


34. Think any of your ex's feel the same?
pretty sure.


35. Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?
not at all. 


36. Have you dated people who were not good to you?
yes.


37. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
no.


38. Do you believe in love at first sight?
no.


39. Ever been given an engagement ring?
no.


40. Do you want to get married?
one day.


41. Has anyone ever told you they wanted to marry you?
yes.


42. Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend?
no.


43. Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds?
i wouldn't know.


44. Have any of your ex's told you they regret breaking up with you?
yes.


45. Would you believe your ex if he said they love you?
depends on which one.


46. Would you ever date your best male friend?
i did. two of them. one ended up quite bad, and the other one ended up with both of us agreeing that we were better off as friends. 


47. If your best friend of the opposite sex went out with someone you knew was wrong for them
would you speak up?
yes. i've done that. 


48. Do you regret any of your relationships?
no.


49. Would you date an ex?
depends on which one. 

Sunday, June 03, 2012

JUNE.

can't believe we're already into the month of June! it means i've only got 9 months of school, and 3 of them, we'll be on long vacations so basically 6 months of school left! volleyball tournament this month, making a class t-shirt, and then 1st trimester finals. summer holidays, 2nd trimester, school festival, sports day, finals, winter holidays & graduation.


better make the best of it! 
gonna start with a hair cut :)