quality over quantity.

let's write about the things i can't say in person. 

1. quality over quantity. that's the first rule in making friends. it's not the number of friends you have, it's the quality of the friends. you can have 1000 friends and they could all turn out to be fake people trying to get you. honestly, you just need a few who would be there for you no matter what. now, popularity is a different matter. because a lot of people could know you and recognize you and talk about you and pay attention to you, which implies that you're somewhat popular, but that doesn't mean you have a lot of friends. 

2. as much as i respect you and your decision, i kind of feel bad about this whole thing. because i know the amount of affection you have towards her, and i also know, as well as you do yourself, that your feelings aren't going to be reciprocated. it's not you, it's her. i know that's a cliche you hear quite often, but it's true. and i know i can never be her replacement and i don't want to be, despite what everyone else says. they know nothing about what goes on between us, and they spread rumours based on stupid assumptions that are always far from the truth. no, i haven't fallen for you. no, i'm not pretending to care about you so you would fall for me. no, i don't want to be with you. somehow, within the past few months, you have become one of my close friends, one of the people i trust and can talk to. that's all there is to this. and you know i'm always here for you, no matter what time of the day or what day of the week it is.