things are never what it looks like.: May 2013

1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?

> the latter. the amount of energy, affection and emotion coming from the person talking to me is tremendous. It overpowers me, just hearing about how they feel about me, but to look into that person's eyes whilst he/she is telling me how they feel, that's just too much.
2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?
> I was angry because my parents' didn't understand how I felt, even when i succinctly told them. I'm not angry about it anymore, i kind of gave up. They've never had to feel scared about living alone in a foreign country. They always had their parents to go with them or they had each other. And they were okay with living abroad, and they expect me to be the same. so i gave up trying to make them see how i felt.
3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?
> i'd call my dad. tell him all the things i need to tell him, in addition to all the things i want to tell other people. he will make sure my last messages gets carried across to the ones who matter.
4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?
> Of course I'd be devastated. There's so much I want to do, so many places I haven't been before. But as far as I'm concerned, I have lived a pretty satisfactory life. I'd tell my closest friends that I am going to die, and I'll live my last 30 days the way I want, surrounded by family, friends and the things I love. I won't travel, because the time spent in airplanes is time wasted, and no, I won't be afraid.
5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.
> I would choose Trust. I think with trust comes love. You can love someone but not trust them. But as soon as you begin trusting someone, some form of love is formed between the two of you. And love is impulsive, trust takes time to build. Receiving someone's love is easy. But gaining trust from someone definitely is hard.
6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?
> I would. I don't think I can let a dog die while knowing I can save him. And if my boss is so cold-hearted to let a dog drown, then so be it. He can fire me all he wants, I wouldn't want to work under such a cold-hearted person.
7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?
> Again, this goes with Q5, I would rather be hurt by the one I love the most. Love is rebuildable. Trust, once it's crumbles, there's virtually no way of putting it back together.

8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say?

> I was lucky. My best friend was a guy. We tried, but figured we were too important for each other to lose in a relationship.

9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?

> Yeah, I would. There's so much he wanted to do and he should be given the chance to anticipate his death.

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?

> I would want myself as a friend, but I wouldn't be so confident to say everyone will.

11. Does love = sex?
> no.
12.Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?
> No. the boss probably has a reason why he choose to fire them instead of me, so I'll stay at the company.
13.When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?
> Probably when I was talking to Moe and Tabushi when we went to the hot springs and we started to talk about how I felt about this one person and I decided that I was going to keep it to myself because telling other people and actually saying it felt like it made the feeling more real. but in the end i ended up confessing and it was tough and talking about it made me realise how strong my feelings were for that one person.
14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member of the opposite/same sex, you love them or that you do not love them back?
> it would be to tell them that i love them.
15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?
> given that family is not up for giving up, i think friends would be the hardest. throughout the past 13 years that i've been in school, i've always had friends to keep me on the right track, friends who kept me from going insane, friends who have told me how stupid i am being and friends who were just there in general. To think i would have to live the rest of my life without them, it's gonna be tough. and i definitely won't survive.
16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you?
> yesterday. he's one of my good friends. we talk everyday and we talk about everything. he's someone i can count on, someone i never want to not be friends with, someone i will always be there for.
17. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why?
> the sleepover. and when i didn't tell her what was bothering me. because that day, i think something changed between us. we're not as close anymore. and she sees it. and i don't like it because despite her being completely dependent on her boyfriend and always throwing us off with his complicated schedule, she still is one of my best friends.
18. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?
> yes. he/she deserves to live, even if he/she is homeless.
19.You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision?
> i would let go of my grandma's hand. i know she has lived a fulfilled life, and she has no regrets as to the way she has lived. If I saved her, and let the baby die, that would be one of her regrets. And a baby has a whole future ahead of her. I would very much like her to live, knowing that her life was saved because a great women, my grandmother, sacrificed herself for her.
20. Are you old fashioned?
> i guess i am.
21. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?
> when i spent an entire night talking to my friend who has emotionally hurt. i just wanted to be there for him, to listen to him, because i know talking made things easier for him to deal with.
22.Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?
> true love with a guarantee of a broken heart. because to live without knowing love is miserable. and a broken heart can make you stronger.
23.If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
> that i can take a few of my friends with me to the states so i wouldn't have to be alone or be distant from everyone else.

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

madame tussauds.

Thursday, May 16, 2013

thought provoking.

Tuesday, May 14, 2013