things are never what it looks like.

I miss the times when all I had to do was be myself and everything would be okay, because I didn't give a shit as to what other people thought. and when I knew, exactly who and who not to trust. but now, its like, theres so many backstabbing and shit going on AROUND ME, and im there to WITNESS all that shit, and that just confuses me more. because I know both sides of the story, but am not really sure which side im suppose to believe. so theres a little bit of confusion in my life everyday, and a bit of shit with others that doesn't concern me directly but does because im overprotective of my friends. which can suck like shit at times like this, because you'll have to juggle a shitload of stuff and you get really confused, and you know you're gonna explode anytime, but you try not to, and then yeah. you explode in the end, and that doesn't end up being so good. 


i need to stop letting my emotions take over my actions. nothing good ever comes out of impetuous acts.