taiwan vs japan.

i miss taiwan. i miss its weather and its atmosphere, and how people were there.

things are so different here, i don't know what im doing. everyone is the same, and if you stand out, everyone stares at you and makes fun of you.
that, is totally unreasonable for me, what with me having to spend my last 5 years in a community where people wanted to be different, to be unique.

i went to my new school a whilte ago for an orientation. someone yelled the word "touche" and i was about to say "TOUCHET!" but i realized that nobody would understand whati m trying to say. and the cafeteria is set up just like TAS, with two rows of chair/benches that are the same brand and the same product as TAS. and theres a giant clock in the middle, up against the wall. i sat down and found myself looking for derrick & creager, the two people i had lunch with both A and B days. it was kinda sad.

i miss being able to go around on my own, because i knew which train to take and what the roads were called, to go on a cab. here, i don't know anything.  i havent lived in Osaka since i was two and a half, and obviously i didnt know much about where i was living at the time.

and people have weird manners or like. un-written rules here. its so un-fucking-resonable. and people still manage to do the weirdest things ever. like put make-up on in a train. from like basic foundation to mascara to lipgloss. and theres like bits of powder flying everywhere, i find it really gross. and people here, i guess, they dont know their age or something. there are like 45 year olds wearing the shortest skirt and the most revealing type of clothes ever. it really is disturbing.

anywho, i really miss taiwan and everything about it, the nightmarket, the hot weather, the randomness of people, all of it.

Which is harder, telling someone you love them or that you don't ?


that i dont.




Who was the last person you got into a fight with?


mum, probably.






Is there someone that you believe you will always be attached to?


i guess.






How many windows are open on your computer?


six.






What are you doing after this?


unpacking.






Where did you buy the shirt you are wearing?


i didnt buy it, someone gave it to me.




Do you like hugs?


usually.






Are you a loud person?


pretty much.






Do you have any piercings?


nope.






How's your mood?


tired.






Does everyone deserve a second chance?


not everyone.




Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?


hahahaha nahhhhhhh






Have you ever had your heart broken?


i guess not.  






Will you be in a relationship in 4 months?


nope.






Have you ever cried in front of a friend?


yeeeah.




Was middle school a bad experience for you?


not really.






Are you cold, warm or just right at the moment?


cold




Anything good happening tomorrow?


everythings arriving from taiwan!






Has anyone ever under-estimated your intelligence?


yep. all the time.






List one of your fears:


change.






Have you ever had a best friend?


yeep






Are you currently looking forward to anything?


not really.






Are you wearing something that belongs to someone else?


yeep/




What have you eaten today?


peaches & grapes & apples.






Did you have a good day yesterday?


sorta.






Who was the last person that left you a comment?

drew.






Will this weekend be a good one?


yeeep.






What's something you really want right now?


water.






Do you like Mexican food?


ish






Are you keeping a big secret right now?


sorta.






How do you like your milk?


ice cold.






Have you ever been called a bitch?


who hasnt?






Who was the last baby you saw ?


johnny!






Is there a guy that knows everything about you?


derrick!






Do you like pancakes?


yeeeh






Do you currently have a hickey?


nope






Did you go out with anyone this past Valentines day?


nope.






Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with an O?


nope.




Who is in your house right now?


taylor, sean, johnny & sam + my mum & grandma






Are your lips chapped?


nope.






What is the last thing you did before bed last night?


plugged in my phone.






How many months until your birthday?


6






How are you feeling RIGHT now?


tired.






Do you like your hair?


not now, but i will in three days cause im getting it cut & re-permed.






Do you look at the keyboard when you type?


noppe.






Had sex at school?


ew. no.






Think back seven months ago, were you single?


nope.






Is your life falling apart or coming together?


falling apart.






Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?


yep.






Would you ever dye your hair blonde?


nashh.






What do you hear right now?


birds.






Do you know anyone who doesn’t smoke pot?


yeah.






Do you think teenagers can fall in love?


maybe.






In the past week, have you cried hysterically in front of a friend?


from laughing too much.






is there anything on your mind that you want to get out?


yeeeh.  a lot of things.






whats the last thing you were pissed about?.


my room.




who gives good advice?


derrick, buii, peyton or brian.

Happy Birthday

JULY 24th!
derricks birthday!
it kinda sucks that your birthday is in the summer 'cause i dont get to wish you happy birthday face to face.
but maybe next year, if im gonna go to the states over the summer.
ANYWHOOO.

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY TERENCE!
&& i hope you have a splendid time working in the kitchen :)

i love you!

and you're a thousand miles away.

questions

Do you hate anyone?
not really.

Are you trying to avoid liking somebody at the moment?
i guess so.

Do you drink more apple or orange juice?
apple!

What time did you go to sleep Friday night?
6 in the morning.

Are you nice to people you dislike?
i try to be, at first. 

Was this summer a good one?
nope. .

You receive $50 without any reason, what do you spend it on?
probably clothes. or books. 

How long does it take you to fall asleep at night?
forever.

Who are you annoyed with? 
nobody right now. 

Would you rather write with a gel pen or Sharpie?
SHARPIEE. 

Do you believe that love at first sight exists?
not really.

Do you miss anyone?
yeah. i miss everyone.

Have you ever had stitches?
yeeep.

Are you easy to get along with?
nope 

Was last night terrible?
nahh it was okay.

Is there someone who meant a lot to you , and isn't around now?
yeah, there is.

Is it possible to be JUST friends with someone you wanna be with?
yeah, of course.

If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?
ehh not really.

What is your favorite book that you had to read for school? 

FTKMF or night

What does the last text you received say? 

"I have ur shirt"

Were you a cute baby? 

nahhh

How are you feeling today? 

saddd :(

Did you have a dream last night? 

yeahh

Do you want to say something to someone? 

yess

Anybody you're looking forward to seeing soon? 

my cousin. and kasumi!!!!!

What was the first thing you did this morning? 

checked the time

How fast does your mood change?
depends

Why did you last smile? 

my daddy. hes funny. 

What time did you get out of bed today? 

7!

Does anyone of the opposite sex have the same name as you? 

probs not. 

Last girls you hung out with? 

rio, Sarah. rui and ayaka

Is there a boy/girl that you would do absolutely everything for?
sure.  

What is the closest thing to you that is striped?
the couch.

Have you ever dropped your phone in a pool?
yeeeh.

Have you ever had a best friend that moved away?
yeah.

Is the last person you kissed yours?
nope.

What color are your eyes?
dark brown.

Who were you last on the phone with?
my grandma.

Do you sleep with the door open or closed?
closed. 

Do you wish anyone in particular was still in your life?
yeah.

Are you an official couple with the last person you kissed?
nope.

If you had five children, what would you name them?
ehhh idk.

When do you go back to school, if you're even still in school?
august 28^th.
Have you had your own room your whole life?
pretty much.  

Have you ever seen an episode of Mythbusters?
one.

How many letters are in your full name?
Kanako suwa so 10. 

Have you ever imagined yourself with the last name of the person you like?
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

Do you want to dye your hair anytime soon?
nahh.

Where was the shirt you're wearing from?
iasas.

Do you know what you want to do with your life?
yeah.

Have you ever ran for Prom/Homecoming king/queen?
nahh. Cant be fucked.  

Is there any yellow paper in your house?
yeah. 

What's a word that rhymes with your middle name?
don’t have a middle name.

Do you wear bandanas in your hair?
ehh no.

How about little scene bows?
naaah.

Are you a vegetarian? Or have you ever been?
nope.

Is yellow your favorite color?
nopee. 

brownieees

recipe taken from http://www.joythebaker.com/
this brownie is absolutely amazing.
but it has so much sugar & butter in it, its so fattening.
but its so fucking good, its not even funny.




i miss may 7th by the way.

sun kissed skin..... not.

i went swiming today, at this pool that i've been going to every summer ever since i was 3. and i swam for the first time since the end of may. and i tanned. 
and THAT's when the story gets ugly.


i swam for 1 & 1/2 hours in the sun, its an outdoor pool. and i wore my training suit of course, because i needed to train. anywho, it was only 1 and a half hours and i still got this:

i got rid of that tan eventually since i was out in the sun for 5 hours after that. but it was definitely not cool.


but im all tanned now :) 
going again tomorrow, meeting up with people && going to a club afterwards. fun fun fun!  

sports.

i've been in japan for 8 days now. and i honestly haven't done anything, because theres nothing we can unpack since our shipment hasnt arrived yet.

and i havent swam in a month. i feel out of shape, unfit, fat, inactive, and every word along that line.

yes, i have not swam since school ended. or before that 'cause i didnt swm during the exams either. the only exercise i've done after exams is our weekly TIC Flag Rugby. which, i actually love, because it's fun and it's something i can do with my dad. and i owe many thank-you's to the people that i've been playing with:

basically everyone who played with us this past year + the japanese guys that came cause it was my dad's last day.

Tien-mu Irish Club.


swimming!
i believe i've posted enough abou swimming on this blog, so im not gonna bother to say anymore, but swimming. is. important. for. me. and. the. people. that. i. swim. with. know. me. the. best.
they're my closest friends, end of discussion :)

without all the people above, i wouldn't have enjoyed my life in taiwan as much. thank you so much.

:)

I know I've said this million times but I'll say it again.



you. drive. me. insane.


I know you worry about me, but I can take care of myself. and I've tried my hardest to not get in any serious trouble. but trouble always finds me. maybe it's me that's a trouble magnet. maybe it's the people I hang out with. either way, I learned that trouble was highly unavoidable for me. and you have to accept that, because I'm not gonna change myself or my friends so you'll be satisfied with me.


and thats also something you have to accept as a part of me and who I am, because things are gonna be different now.

Daddy's new house

i looooove my daddys new house :) its small but its so nice. and he has the digital photo frame his colleages gave him as a good bye present and i put many many photos in there and it is now playing a slideshow of all photos.

i saw michelle, johnna, mayu & mao two days ago, and i stayed over at mayu & mao's house last night. i guess it was nice for our mothers to catch up on things while i took the little ones into the other room to watch TV and sing & dance.

my daddys stuff came today, three box because that was all he could fly over for now. and his shipment is coming in a week, which im gonna unpack for him.

im kind of happy today, im with my dad :) and i'lll be here for the next two weeks so that should be fun :)


my new number:
080 4025 4436
email ad for my phone - a reply within 5 min guranteed :)
kanako.tastigers@softbank.ne.jp

our lovely editor in chief.

thats our editor in chief. or our... supposed-to-be-editor-in-chief person who downright insults peoples pieces but she cant write a proper piece of her own.

either one would work.

:)

it's sad how we're not what we used to be anymore.

you.

you were always different. and yet, you wanted to be the same.

you were unique. and yet, you hated being unique.

you tried being the same, and you stood out more than ever.

i like you just the way you are, but that doesn't matter to you so much.

you were proud to be different. but every once in a while, you'd tell me you didn't want to stand out.

you didn't like the attention you got from being unique. but you didn't want to be left alone.

30 things.

Your Best Friends
tovebjork, derrickmoore, peytonharris, kevinbuii, briantong, berlincheng, ericlin, andiecreager, stephyang, kimmiipelissier, springcow, micahsindelar, ryanpatrickmcdougal.




Your Crush
none at the moment.


Your parents
daddy is in tokyo, mums here with me.


Your sibling (or closest relative)
no sibling.
closest relative would be my cousins.



Your dreams
language, helping people.


A stranger
could possibly be my friend.


Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
derrick :)


Your favorite internet friend
you.


Someone you wish you could meet
that swimmer Diana keeps mentioning.


Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
peyton!

A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
jason.


The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
lives somewhere in the world but idk where.


Someone you wish could forgive you
you.


Someone you’ve drifted away from
jinnie.


The people you miss the most
tove. berlin. derrick. brian. peyton. buii. eric. cow. steph.



Someone that’s not in your state/country
everyone that i miss.


Someone from your childhood
yuka shizuru, haruko & satoko ayabe!

The person that you wish you could be
myself.

Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
you.


The one that broke your heart the hardest
is in the states now. not with me. thank god.


Someone you judged by their first impression
derrick moore.


Someone you want to give a second chance to
us.


The last person you kissed
derrick.

The person that gave you your favorite memory
derrick.


The person you know that is going through the worst of times
johnny
The last person you made a pinky promise to
micah.


The friendliest person you knew for only one day
kayla!
Someone that changed your life
them.


The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
you.


Your reflection in the mirror
gross.