knowledge.

funny, how the things that used to matter to us before are now worth nothing. like the pokemon cards i used to collect. i had them in numbered order and had them pinned to my wall when i was in grade 1. now the cards have been replaced by photos of my friends and i, of the memories, of my family and posters of athletes and actors. to tell the truth, i have no idea where my pokemon cards are jow.

and this is applicable to people as well. you wake up one day and the people you call your best friends have all turned against you. you know it doesn't really matter because it's all a part of the dreaded high school drama, but it still hurts. you begin to wonder all the possible reason for how your friends are behaving, but there is no absolute solution.

two nights later, you realise you are on your own on a friday night, something you haven't been for almost two years. friday was a movie night and it was a given.
not this weekend though. you rummage through the dvd collection, determined to watch a movie, if you are all alone. but you pick the wrong movie, one with a bunch of high school students laughing in the school corridors, gossiping, trying to keep up with the latest news of the almighty kingdom known as high school.

somewhere along the way, you realise something; you are okay. loneliness and dull days follow you still, but you know you are okay, and knowing you won't collapse any time soon, is the most wonderful thought you've had in a long time.