ignorance.

some say ignorance is bliss.
but
i cant stand your ignorance.
you think its okay to voice your opinions.
and really, it is okay as long as you thinkabout what you're gonna say and the consequences of what you say.
its not okay to just blurt out what you think, because that might be a burden to the person you say it to.

he quit the team after really thinking about it, and you know how hard it was for him to make the decision.
so you cant just tell him to come back.
be considerate. think about what would happen between him and the rest of the team. they're all gonna be like whatthefuck.

i understand you were brought up in an environment where everyone absolutely adored you, whether it'd be for your so-called looks or for your ability to play sports, but you dont live in that environment anymore and you're not a little kid anymore.
stop fooling yourself, you're not that great.

please, please think about what you are gonna say before you hurt more of your friends.

awhhhh
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awh.

bah.

a week til the finals now.

so much to do, so little time.

too much going on, way too much.

need to get away.

cant wait for the summer.

i cant take this anymore. i dont care if you talk behind my back. i dont care what you say, as long as im not there to hear you say it.
its perfectly fine for you to say things when im not around.
but it does hurt when you say it right behind me, without even fucking realizing that i could hear you.
you think its fun trying to hurt me because i dont show that im hurt. and i hate to admit this but i do get hurt. im not that strong.
i dont know how much of this i can take anymore.

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fallacy detective.

its funny how preconception makes us misjudge people we meet for the first time.
this kinda ties in with the whole fallacy thing im doing in my english class.
and even as im typing this, i know i judge people as well. so i cant really say much about it now, but im hoping i could be more mature and accept people for who they truly are, rather than dismissing them based on first impression.

i need to grow up.

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for the last time, my blog is not for anyone.
i dont expect anything from my readers, nor should you expect anything special from me just because you happened to be an annoying yet important part of my life.

i dont dedicate my posts to anybody, although some people dont get that. usually my posts are written in generalized form, rather than my personal life.

my blog is a compilation of thoughts, not of events.

courage.

i now understood perfectly well what you were trying to tell me before.
you were saying that you had decided to put me before yourself, no matter how much pain it caused.
it didnt mean much to me at the time, but now i know.

it takes a great deal of courage to put others in front of you, knowing you yourself would get hurt from the process of it.
but what makes a person a good friend or a good person in general, is their ability to think about everyone but themselves.

and i hope i had that courage.
more so now than before.